In the months after his father’s suicide, it’s been tough for 16-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again–but he’s still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he’s slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely. When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aaron’s crew notices, and they’re not exactly thrilled. But Aaron can’t deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can’t stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute’s revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.
Why does happiness have to be so hard?
This book is so hard to review. It’s hard because it was absolutely incredible. Painful. Emotional. Sad. So, so, sad, but incredible. This story will stay with me for a very long time. The storyline was dark and powerful in so many ways. The twists were well-done, the romances/friendships felt real and interesting. The way Silvera paints grief and depression was realistic. He is such an amazing writer, this was a great debut novel. i can’t wait to read what he writes next. The writing was fantastic and full of geeky references, which i love. Aaron was a great main character and gosh, i wanted to hug him SO BAD. i wanted to hold him, tell him everything is going to be okay. I wanted him to be happy, so, so happy. I wanted everything to work out fine for him. That’s why this book broke my heart. Halfway into it and i knew i wasn’t going to be smiling alot.
I finished this book in a day, i just couldn’t put it down. Such a emotional ride, such a good book. It will be stuck on my mind for a while i’m sure.
More Happy Than Not : 4.5/5